Some physician somewhere that I had to go see-- and I don't remember which one although I suspect it was the no-fault insurance company doctor. No-fault means "It ain't our fault so we ain't paying"-- gallantly informed me that since there was 'nothing wrong' with my inner ears ergo I do not have any balance problems. Dude clearly hadn't seen me in action. I can fall on level ground.
The needle-sticking neuro-doc directed me to tell him right away if I ever got dizzy. I wasn't dizzy. The room was dizzy and slid slowly to the left. Still does. He didn't ask me to speak up if the room got dizzy. So I never told him. Hey.
It was the chiro-doc who first educated me about the two vertigos. The internal vertigo means I am dizzy. The external vertigo means the room is dizzy. I have the second one. The room slides slowly to the left all of the time. During attacks of vertigo [and I've had a few of them], the room twirls to my left a bit faster than usual and also bobs up and down like ocean waves. The room and everything slides to the left. I fall to the right.
Yes, I fall more often these days. The latest fall involved a spill off of a step. I landed *s p l a t*
"Leukemia?" I asked.
"The bruises. And the lumps." I pointed to my lower legs. "I'm going to have lumpy legs forever."
The anxiety was pre-injury but let us just say that the t.b.i. did not improve that aspect of my psyche.
I don't have leukemia. Armed with an explanation of exactly how bruising and lumps work, I left fortified with the knowledge that this may take up to two months to heal.
I did mention that I went *s p l a t*.
"You aren't using your cane," a buddy of mine accused me later.
I shrugged. I've fallen with the cane too.
sapphoq healing traumatic brain injury says: Balance is one of those things that can be worked at and I do. Even so, I still go
*s p l a t* once in awhile. No reason to quit. I keep striving.