Monday, August 27, 2012
My traumatic brain injury left me with some rather outstanding perception problems. Because I have diagnosed permanent double vision in one eye, I have been treated to the sight of folks with two heads, four arms, and two torsos which extend into one set of hips and two legs casually jogging in my neighborhood. Because I have been diagnosed with ocular-motor dysfunction and a visual accommodation disorder, objects and people appear as having ghost lines around them, especially when fatigued and my brain is too tired to block those ghost lines. (And let's not forget the photophobia which is responsible for me limiting my driving at night to "only local and only when not tired." And my fatigue from dealing with all of this which led me recently to switch to an e-reader which is set to make reading easier for me).
I know that first paragraph sounds like I am whining. But really, I am not whining. I want to tell you about Google Sketch-Up®. Sketch-Up® is a three-d modeling program that is available at http://sketchup.google.com/download/ as freeware. [If someone is a professional and wants more bells and whistles, they can buy a professional version from Trimble]. I like three dimensional stuffs and I also like animation. I've been endeavoring for some time to use DAS®, Bryce®, Blender®, and Hexagon II® and I've had no success to speak of. [Those four programs were all available as free legal downloads a couple of months ago from their company's website. I believe the special offer may have ended. At any rate, I got in on it the very last day]. Those programs were too hard for me to learn at the present time. One night I happened upon Sketch-Up® and promptly downloaded the free version.
In short order, I found that I was able to produce rectangles, circles and 3d text. [If you want to see a few of the things I've made, google "warehouse lovemakesafamily" to find some examples that I've uploaded to Google Warehouse®]. After watching a few free tutorial videos, I went on to make several skyboxes, some other shapes, and a box with a chaffeured lid. As I continue to work with my digital camera and computer art, building in Second Life®, and Google Sketch-Up® I've noted some improvement in the way that my eyes work together when I practice my vision therapy exercises. This improvement I must still label as "subjective" since it has yet to be confirmed by my t.b.i. eye doc.
Sorry to the dedicated optimists who want me to say that my vision problems are totally abated, cured, or not permanent after all. It simply ain't so. I have to deal with my situation as it is and not engage in dreams of being "almost or exactly 100%" of who I was before my accident. I am very fortunate to be alive. I would have been better off-- certainly financially and in some other ways as well-- had the motor vehicle accident not happened. But things are what they are. I continue to deal with Briella [my still brilliant brain, just a bit sideways] on a daily basis. When I think back to how far I've come from the early days of sleeping twenty-two hours every twenty-four, relearning on the computer how to write a complete and organized sentence, playing Tetris® because other T.B.I.ers told me it would "help" with my eye-hand coordination, and myriad discussions about the names of the seven dwarves, I smile broadly and say to myself, "Yup I done good. Now I gotta keep striving."
sapphoq healing t.b.i.